一、我现在的状态-灵魂感到孤独
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Very lonely, honestly, I might be surrounded with a lot of people uh it could be friends, family, whatever like, working a company people, employees, staff.There's love there, but deep down, I know that like mentally in my soul like I'm lonely.
非常孤独，说实话，我可能被很多人包围着，比如朋友、家人，或者在公司里工作的人、员工、职员。虽然有爱存在，但我深知在我的心灵深处，我是孤独的。
And I have no shoulder to lean on in my soul.It's been a while already yeah I'm still recovering from it. I don't know who to call, honestly, because honestly speaking my parents in some way we're also working together like as the finance whatever it's in taking part participating in in the company.
在我的灵魂里，我没有可以依靠的肩膀。已经有一段时间了，是的，我仍在从中恢复的过程中。说实话，我不知道该打电话给谁，因为老实说，我的父母在某种程度上也在一起工作，比如参与公司的财务管理等等。
Right I have all my friends where we're running the business right and I feel like I'm always outputting deep down, I don't feel like I'm receiving, you get me, I don't have another party to connect to in my soul.A lot of times and I and I know there's a lot of saying that ,hey you know what, in this industry entertainment whatever uh you get you get lonely you just get lonelier it's the way it is right and I think I'm just going through that.
是的，我的所有朋友都在和我一起从事业务，我感觉我一直在输出，但内心深处感觉没有回应。我感觉自己无法与另一个人在灵魂层面上建立联系。很多时候，因为很多人说，嘿你知道吗，在这个娱乐行业中，你会变得孤独，你会变得更孤独，这就是这个行业需要面对的。而我想我正在经历这个阶段。
二、这种状态曾让我迷失自我
I think before 「Magicman」I was in the process of facing it and it almost feels like I'm in a dark room I'm sprinting in a dark room.And I'm just knocking everything over, if it felt like that.But now it's the same thing I'm going through the same thing but I know oh this is what it is
我认为在Magicman专辑之前我处于面对低谷的过程中，几乎感觉像是我在黑暗中奔跑。然后我想搞砸所有事情，感觉就是那样的。虽然现在仍处于类似状态，但是我知道自己在做什么。
It's more clear what I'm going through I'm more I'm aware of now, but before,I was in the deepest deepest uh the lowest point of my life mentally.It I'm not a person that I would want to avoid stuff but during that moment for the whole year I think I was trying the first time in life that I wanted to avoid I didn't want to face it because I don't know what it is and I felt like I lost everything.
现在我更清楚自己正在经历什么，我现在意识到了，但之前我精神上处于生命中最低谷，最深的深渊中。心理上。我不是逃避，我并不是一个会逃避问题的人，但那个时候大概有一整年，我人生第一次想要逃离，不想去面对。我不想去面对它，因为我不知道这是什么，而且我感觉自己失去了一切
三、想去面对一切，决定展示不完美的自己。
I decided to show the not perfect side of myself and I'm I feel like it's okay to tell people because I'm being true right
我决定展示自己不完美的一面，我觉得向别人坦诚也没关系，因为这就是真实的自己。
And I'm not perfect I think I just need to admit it and start opening up myself to talk with to connect with more and more people before I was just like. Before I was just like work work work and get straight into the point you know uh I think before it's more like I care too much about trying to satisfy everybody around me but now it's just like I figure out like hey what about me it's my career it's my path and I can't expect them to have the same dream as I do because it's my dream it's not their dream they have their own dream so that came to my mind so I'm like hey I have to be the leader of my world my goals and my and my and my dream.
是的，我并不完美，我觉得我只需要承认这一点，开始敞开自己与更多的人交谈，互相感受彼此，以前我不是这样的，我以前就只是一直工作、工作、工作，直截了当直奔主题。我认为以前我太过于在意周围每个人的感受，试图去取悦他们。但现在我意识到，嘿，这是我自己的事业和和自己的道路，不能指望他们和我有同样的梦想，因为这是我的梦想，不是他们的。他们有他们的梦想，这个想法浮现在我的脑海中，于是我想，我必须要主宰我自己的世界，为我的目标和梦想努力。
四、我只是你们人生的过客，做好自己
I want my audience and my supporters to know that I'm an Entertainer right I'm an artist performing all I want to do is to entertain them in every way because I really feel like you know fame, popularity, that thing is bubbles it doesn't last forever and I feel like the amount of time that I have I just want to make everybody smile, entertained.
我希望我的观众和支持者知道，我是一个演艺人员，一个表演艺术者，我的目标是以各种方式让他们感到开心。因为我真的觉得，名利、流行这些东西都是泡沫，不会永远存在。我觉得在我拥有的时间里，我只想让每个人都能开心，娱乐大家。
through music, through my performance, whatever it is, that's all I want and I want them in their own fields, their career. I want them to become somebody that they're proud of I want them to be good it's not about me. I'm just one of those artists that just comes in and it's gonna be gone anytime.
透过音乐，透过我的表演，无论是什么方式，这就是我想要的。我希望他们在自己的领域、自己的职业中成为自己觉得值得骄傲的人。我希望他们都能生活的很好，不仅仅只关注我，我只是很多艺人中的一个，我只是大家的过客也可能随时离开大众视野。
